Driven

Around the time school ended, probably within the last 2 or 3 weeks, I became really driven again for music.  I've been actively involved in music since I was 3 or so and then I could say I've been a performer since around 8 and then a musician (of sorts) since middle school when I started playing guitar and being in bands.  

Since high school, I've not been in any bands, by my own personal choosing.  I've been asked a couple of times but have always opted not to because I felt that the calling of worship leader was what I needed to and should focus on.  This is still partially a feeling I have, but I wasn't really doing much to focus on worship leading.

So, since a couple of weeks ago, I've realized and felt driven to want to and to attempt to write songs and focus on music and really spend time involving myself with music. Not that I haven't done this in the past, but definitely not to the extent that I did in high school.  I've also wanted to start songwriting with a few different people (some who have never written before, some who are far better than me to a point where I know I will embarrass myself, but that is part of the learning and growing process.)  I also want to really focus on my project with Elizabeth (which is one of my main goals) and then also work on some solo stuff, worship stuff (another main goal), and maybe start another band or 2 along the way (stuff that is serious but is probably doesn't play out every week.)  

The other day I even picked up the guitar and played for an hour just enjoying the time playing.  I haven't done that in too long.  I just have found myself  in love with music and all that it is again.  Dang.  Yeah, I just want to really spend a ton of time doing that and loving it.

Music, where it is at.